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well… its been a while

and just to update, i’ve not let myself go entirely over the past several months but i’d be lying if i didn’t admit to a bit of unhealthy yo-yoing.

I was well on track to my goal  in feb/march and then a huge project came into work and i worked 2, 80+ hour weeks in a row which threw my whole eating schedule off. Working until 5am night after night made me tired, groggy and reaching for whatever unrefined carb i could find.

Following that insane period I had 3 trips planned (some work and some not) and it became really tough to resist the temptation of  all the amazing food that my travel companions were enjoying. …that and the wine…

SO with my tail between my legs, i’m back at 138 and ready to focus over the next 2 months to lose about 18 pounds and then hopefully another 10 by the end of july…

I’ve started journalling all my food which really helps me not to snack on junk food b/c my journal makes me feel guilty for doing it.

I’m following a “2-week total body turnaround” strength routine. Trying to get in 5-6 days of cardio a week and sticking to South Beach Phase 1 for at least the following 4 weeks.

Once that is through I expect to be back where I was in mid march (about 128 or so)

My goal is to be at 120 for my 30th birthday on June 22nd.

If that is not motivation enough, i don’t know what is.

So i’ll be randomly blogging about how i’m feeling/doing.

Mostly for me but if you have any thoughts or tips, I’m always open ears!

Hope  you’re all doing well!

Now I still don’t know if this will mean anything on the scale. But i bet/hope in a few more weeks I’ll be into my not-so-fat pants.

I had another healthy weekend. Was tempted BIG TIME on saturday to have a drink (or 4…) with friends at a beach party but I managed to make it through without. And when I got home on saturday night at about 10pm, I was HUNGRY but I knew that I had eaten plenty during the day and these late night snack binges (my pre-diet favorite activity) were the enemy. SO I managed to have a cup of tea and hit the hay. It seems like such a tiny thing but i’m so proud of myself.

So onward I forge into week 3 of the diet! I’m still on a roller coaster of emotions and constantly reminding myself to stick with this. Thanks to everyone for the supportive comments on my blogs so far it totally keeps me pumped!

I read a fitness article today that ended with the quote: “HOW BAD DO YOU WANT IT?”

well, I want it pretty bad!

Happy healthy monday all!

The scale is not really a friend of mine. It never has been. I’m TERRIFIED of scales. Like seriously terrified. The last time I actually liked a scale was when it told me i was 118 pounds. That was 2 years ago. And I loved how I looked then. And I don’t so much now. And I let things get pretty crazy this year. Every other time i’ve been on a diet, its been honestly to lose like 5 or 10 pounds at most. This time its 30 and it feels like i’m on a major trek right now. I wish I could just hire someone to take over my body for a little while and do all of this dieting and exersize for me and I’ll just nap while they do it. They can wake me up when they’re done and i’ll just hop back into my new fit bod and get on with things…

BUT i know that’s not possible and I know that putting in this hard work and doing this myself is what will train me to carry on with the healthy habits going forward. I think I just don’t have a lot of patience. That my be my biggest problem. I expect INSTANT rewards. I feel like if I work hard for a week, then I should be done! So naive, I know.

So, I weighed myself this morning. After a fairly fruitless cardio session (still sore from a hike i did on sunday so i can’t really work out hard). I blow dried my hair to make sure there was no extra weight from my wet hair haha! and the scale came up with a decent number but somehow I wanted more. I’m down about 2.5-3 pounds since my weigh in last Weds. That’s pretty good, I know. And wrtiting it down and seeing it now, makes me feel less awful about it.

So over the next few months as I keep going with this personal reinvention, I am going to make it a goal to be honest with myself and agree to get on the scale regularly to see where my weight is. For years I was too scared to weigh myself. Seriously I’ve gone a full year without weighing myself).  but I need to stop looking at the scale as a bully and more as a friend that helps me keep track of how healthy i’m being. And I need not to beat myself up when I don’t see the magic number i’m dreaming of.

So i’m still pluggin away here. One step further along on the trek… here’s to motivation. Thanks to all of you for your continued support!

Happy healthy Wednesday all!

hehe. I know, sounds kind of strange but for the past couple of weeks I’ve not been wearing anything but skirts or dresses and sweatpants. I wore gym pants to work twice last week. The reason is because ALL of my pants (and trust me when I tell you I have a ridiculous amount of clothing) were too small. And while i’m still in my “fat” pants. I am at least in pants and not wearing some hideous flowing mumu.

I made it through the weekend with no cheating and am feeling happy about myself. I’ve got no clue if i’ve even lost a pound and i’m terrified to get on the scale and be let down (wednesday is my weigh-in day) BUT. I know, whether i’ve lost 1 pound or 3, all the healthy eating and working out has definitely made me a much happier person.

And not drinking, that’s been fantastic! Not to say I don’t miss a glass of wine here and there. But I went to “happy hour” twice this weekend and happily chilled out with my fresh lime soda (which looks just like a cocktail!) and had a blast. Got to bed at a nice early hour and got up to work out both saturday and sunday. Sunday’s hike was TOUGH! and now i’m pretty sore. Wearing heals at the office today is killer! But, most importantly, I stuck with my plan and the weekends are always when I lose it. So i’m ready for week 2 and feeling equally as motivated.

Here’s hoping everyone had a happy, healthy weekend!

So, I skipped the happy hour the other night. I was just too scared to deal with the temptation . I stopped by for about 5 minutes to say hello to everyone and went home and made myself a healthy dinner instead.

I know i need to face social situations and get out there and everything but I guess on day 3 of my diet it wasn’t super necessary.

Still trucking along well. I’ve worked out a TON this week. Boot camp, plus at the gym running and doing strength sessions. I’m a little bit sore all over but not as bad as I thought I would be. I’m proud of myself for going to the gym as much as i have though and getting out of bed every morning  in time to start with a healthy breakfast instead of just grabbing something and eating it on my way to work.

This weekend will be the big challenge. I am very nervous. I’ve been trying to pack the weekend full of events that won’t lead to too much indulgence. Yoga class tomorrow. Hiking with friends on Sunday. Keeping busy with healthy non bar related activities to stay on track with the diet. We’ll see how it goes!

I already feel better all around though. My mind feels more clear, and I feel more fit. And as I was discussing with a friend last night, this time around in my series of diets over the past year and a half, I truly feel that THIS TIME, success is the only option. And that I will reach my goals 100%.

I just need to stay motivated! This site really helps me with that!

Here’s to a happy healthy weekend for us all!

:) 

So things are still going well. Albeit, i’m only one day further in now. But i’m motivated and I really like the community feeling here on buddyslim

last night I went to my first Boot Camp class. It was great! it was a challenge but not as bad as I thought. I was worried that the trainer would yell at me and tell me I sucked which typically happens when I do group exercise activities (don’t even get me started on the rowing team I joined last year who all blamed me for losing the big race or the “just for fun” exotic dance class I took with some girlfriends during which I could barely stay standing for a full grapevine…) But with bootcamp, it’s cool because it’s basically on your own but just with the company of others. If I can’t do a situp right, i’m not going to be scowled at by the rest of the group. They’re all too busy worrying about themselves to notice!

So the diet is also going well but I have my first challenge tonight. Its sort of a silly one but it’s a challenge for me all the same. I have committed to going to a bar with some friends tonight for a happy hour/quiz night get together. Nearly all of them know that I am not drinking this month so I expect there won’t be too much pressure but all the same, i’m nervous about the temptation. The feeling left out when everyone is cheersing (if that’s a word) or not being able to grab a fry off the apetizer platter… I know I could just opt not to go but I want to remind myself that just because I’m on a diet does not mean i’m a spinster who needs to stay home and knit all night long.

So, my hope is that if I acknowledge my fear, this might help me overcome it and  have the strength to overcome it.

I’ll give an update tomorrow and i’m confident it will  be a positive one!

Okay… my first blog post…

I know these are basically just for me but i’ll sum up my situation thus far.

I moved to asia about 2 years ago and have struggled to maintain my weight since I arrived. A combination of new food, new friends and a new lifestyle altogether (filled with, let’s admit it now, a FEW too many happy hours that turned into the morning hours).

This is not to say that i’m entirely lazy, I’ve run a marathon this year and several other road races and really stayed up with my fitness but lately things have been seriously slipping. And I recently looked in the mirror and saw a girl that I did not recognise. A girl that I do not want to look like.

I’ve started this dieting thing every few weeks over the past 18 months and every time, a few weeks in, I bail. I find some reason that justifies it, …a special occasion –I need that cake …a long day at work, –I deserve a drink …travelling for work –its too complicated to eat healthy from a hotel… excuses. They are convincing excuses and I convince myself rather easily. BUT what I have just this week come to realize that the one person i am really cheating with these little “treats” is myself. Its not a matter of “i deserve that cake, that entire box of cheezits, this glass of wine” what my body deserves is to be treated well and not to be indulged all of it’s fleating and often meaningless cravings.

SO. I start now on the campaign of Tory’s Two months of Total Health. Starting with 1 month of NO alcohol.

I’ll be on South Beach Phase 1 for the next 2.5 weeks. Then onto a 10-day super charge plan all the while accelerating my cardio workouts starting tonight with the BootCamp workout that my friend Karen and I have signed up for together.

Here’s hoping things continue to go well and this time it’s not all talk and no action…